Okay...I know I have not written in a while, but I have been waiting for some inspiration. Well, here it is.
I have been trying (for the 2nd time) the wonderful world of online dating. It is a way to say 'Hi' to someone while sitting at your kitchen table with your ratty pijamas, uncombed hair and yesterday mascara smeared on your cheek (because I was too lazy to take it off after watching an NCIS marathon). I sit here going through a catalogue of men...perfect! It's like going to the 'swap meet' (where people go to show you there 'stuff' instead of going to Garage Sales (where you have to search for people's 'stuff'). Either way works and both require the looking through 'STUFF'. (Thank God I am taking vitamines and eating protein first...this is exhausting).
So, why am I doing this. First..it seems to be good for my weight loss because I get so nervous just thinking about meeting someone that I can't eat! (Bonus!). Second...My niece is going off to college soon and I think it's about time I start making my life a little more exciting and possibly find someone to love and who will love me back.....and if perfect - build a life together. (Or get on the Maury Povich show to point him out as my 'Baby Daddy'...).
So, this past week I have been texting and talking to a really nice man. He's 42, ex-Navy, has a job, 6'4" tall, has a very nice truck, and speaks English. On paper..he seems perfect. On mobile text..he seems perfect. On the phone...he seems perfect. He would text me in the morning to say "Buenos Dias", he would tell me that he was thinking about me and asked if I was thinking about him. He told me I was pretty. He said he was trying to 'woo' me (You have to like a man who uses the word 'woo'...). We met on Saturday and walked around the city. He was nice and polite and awkward (as any smitten man should be). I was dressed in nice jeans and a modest blouse... he ask me why I hadn't worn something that showed 'What my momma gave me' (he was joking..I hope), so I told him I was......she had given me 'Morals'.
I could not eat for a week before meeting him because I was stressing so much, but on the date....I was smooth (I think??). I was articulate, cute and funny (that's how it appeared to me any way). We had a long day, but at the end of it all I didn't feel 'anything'. I didn't hear angels sing, baby hearts were not coming out of my eye's or see cupid sling an arrow at me.....I was dissapointed in ME for not feeling anything. I was hoping for 'something'...something that would tell me this was the right path...but nothing! I just wanted to hug him, feed him and keep him hydrated. I knew he liked me...I could feel it. Even a woman as dumb as I am about dating could feel his attraction. (Why didn't God make me rich instead of beautiful.....). There is nothing wrong with him. He's a nice man. I'm just obviously a cold hearted 'that which rhymes with WITCH'.
We live 2 hours away from each other, so giving it a second chance could be possible, but I don't want to play with his feelings only because I want to verify mine. I am taking my best friends advice and letting things take their course. Let's see what happens next....I did say I wanted more excitement in my life....well, here it is.
This is what I have learned:
1. Don't get 'cute-sy' with a guy until after you have met him in person and you feel a connection. (stupid rookie mistake)
2. Don't try and be something you are not, just be yourself (it's enough...)
3. Don't pick out a wedding dress and wonder how he would get along with your family until AFTER you have met him. (stupid rookie mistake)
4. Don't be dissapointed if things don't work out.......life goes the way it goes for a reason.
5. Do be polite and treat people with the same respect you would like to be treated.
6. Do give up the search for the 'perfect match', but never the search for 'The' person that gives songs more meaning and flowers a brighter color. I think this is important.
I don't know how much longer I will be 'Online dating', but I know I have much...MUCH more to learn about it. I am keeping an open mind. This adventure may or may not work....but I am sure things will happen as they should.
